If Only I Could....

If only I could break reality
For you to exists again,
Then I would.....


If only I could just see how
I turn your frown upside
And you have so much
Excitement across your face
Then I would.....


If only I could just feel your
Muscles caresses my body
When I am cold at night
Then I would.....


If only I could look deep into
Your eyes just to get feel the
Sincerity of your love for me
Then I would.....


If only I could listen your voice
On the phone at night, as if it is
Some kind of Melody that has
The most precious tone of
Puttin' me to sleep
Then I would.....


If only I could make you mine
Again, no matter all my wrong
Decisions because you are the
Best thing that has ever has
Ever happened to me
Then I would......

*Inspired by Someone Special To My Heart*

"Lost With One Wing"

If only I could see, beyond today
As the clouds begin to roll away
Then maybe, I can finally see
That I have become my very own
Reflections of my insecurities
And imperfections.

Even though, I feel like dying
I see myself
Remaining a frame in the dark
Going down a one way street
That leads to a bottomless creek
Trying to catch a sneak peak
Of the sunshine
Behind the beauty of my brokenness

Living life on a merry-go-round
I am broken and tired
But in spite of this ache
I will rise like the dead
And become unafraid
I will begin to move mountains
So I can levitate off my feet because
My destiny, is too far out of reach

"Forever Mine"

Have you ever just seen the hurt within
The depths of someone's eyes that
Was just so deep that it could
Cut straight through you?

As their body language begins to
Decrease and the tears increase
It leaves you asking yourself
"What are we doing?" well, with
Love, I haven't had much practice
The one's before you were just a
Waste of time or even a distraction

This thing we got is crazy I lay up
All night loosing sleep over you
I drive myself crazy thinking
About my baby, because you
Constantly loved me in a special
Way that made the butterflies
In my stomach become active

But, I am not going away
You will always be my baby
The thought of you being gone
From my presence or even my
Life forever is just like me grasping
For the breath of life, waiting for
The doctors to wake me up from a
Dream that has turned into a reality

"What is Hope"

You never said I wasn't good enough

You would always tell me to

Keep my head held high and

Look beneath the depths of the sky

For what you call a lesson, but yet

I just look for hope and understanding

Shit, what is the meaning of hope anymore?

To me hope is and always will be

The substance of things unseen

What I call hope, is the way Christ was being

Crucified when he died on the cross for my sins

I guess you could call me crazy when I thought

Finding hope was within YOU, but yet

I realize the devil has mistaken my body

As a chimney for a playground

While I wrestle within the demons

Inside of me for inner peace, but

Depression just continues to

Take over me, but then you came

Along and I trusted everything in you

I thought just maybe, just maybe

You were the hope, the answer, the glue

To tie all my pieces together

That is, until you showed me

Your true colors

To the point where I would just keep getting

A battle scar on my heart and the

More I stitch it up the worst the pain

Will burst and fall through, but no matter

How many times I tell you the depths of the hurt

You'll never care fast enough to catch the pieces

Of my heart before they shatter as they hit the floor

One by one, yet piece by piece

While the blood spatter turns into a

Quick sand to devour your body

because you never took care of mine

And yet I still question, what is hope?

What Is left of me to give unto others?

Am I worth the risk?

What is hope?

No matter how many times I lay

In my bed at night and cry 

Was my existence even designed

To stand a chance?

The bruises on my body would tell me

I am worthless little piece of art

That bows out of pretty

"A Cry Out For Help"

Life is like coin,you can spend it in any way you chose
But you can only spend it once, we are at a certain
Point and time where we all need to just reevaluate our
Life choices we all are humans and may be wrong but
We all need to stick together because in the end we are
All each other has to make it successful or to create the
Better world we all wish to be in since we are all tired
Of havin' our backs up against the world because if we
Do not change it we will not make it and life will continue
Fightin' but life does not fight fair and will have us leanin'
On these ropes now lookin' for some kind of hope thinkin'
We just havin' these nightmares and it all be okay in the
Mornin' but in all reality we are livin' and walkin' the
Dangerous streets of this world not knowin' what will
Happen next for us the very next day or whether not
God will be takin' us home to be in a place where we
Will not have to be sufferin' anymore it is important
That we find our true purpose while we are here but
If you can not find your purpose look deep into your
Heart and allow your passion to lead you because in
The end we only regret the things we did not accomplish
That we had a strong desire of doin'.......

"The Cost Of Being In Love"

When I think about love, I think of an
Everlasting feelin' Of protection or being
Cared for unconditionally but your
Heart begins to take over your mind and
Have you fallin' hard for someone who
Could possibly not feel the exact full amount
Of how you feelin' but yet you still continue
To love them hoping they will come to
Their senses but the more you wait patiently
For him to act straight you're hurting
Yourself in the process without even recognizing
The real damage that the action of being
In love causes, being in love will have you question
If you're the reason things go wrong or
Why he randomly switches up on you with no
Remorse and leaves you wishin' he understood how
You truly feel, so you make the decision to cut
Off people who may get in the way of your happiness
But things go wrong and in the end you choose
To fall back to keep yourself from experiencin' anymore
Pain which may seem to even cause more hurt
You even more because all you really wanted to do was
Create an eternity of love with him

"A Second Chance At Love"

I thought I lost you forever when
I was stuck in my past, He said
"I was perfect"and"I really want you to be mine"
But, I thought wasn't worthy of his time
So, he eventually got tired of waiting and
I watched my chance at love go by,
Ever since then you were always on my mind
Thinkin' to myself I could do better
If I truly tried, no matter the mistakes or my
Joys and sorrows, a lifetime show of
Love was left in my heart for days like tomorrow
Miracles happen, dreams do come true
But the proof is, this love that I have for you
You've been my wish that I have prayed
For God to make true, since real love does not
Go away nor does it fade into the past but it
Goes on forever when you are in my soul
Cause darling', I am truly in love with you
Even though, I have hurt you and made some mistakes
We have been through the worst
But our love has always stayed the same and now
That you are back, I can't promise you
That tomorrow will be perfect but I can promise you
An everlasting loyalty, devotion and respect
To ensure that our love will have a lifetime effect

*Inspired by My Teddy*