"The Pain That Lives Inside"

Everyday I wake up thanking GOD 

For all he has brought me through

But I still hold on to all that 

Happened to me as I

Was growing up 

Sometimes the feeling of 

Being stuck in the past 

And walking forward

With my back turned

Makes me realize that 

I'm missing out on 

Being happy and successful....

Now its time that I let go of all 

The heartaches, stress, frustration,

Irritation and aggravation

I'm sick and tired of being 

Lost, confused, hurt, 

Shattered, abandoned, broken, 

Depressed, abused and  misused. 

I'm no longer letting my past 

Define me, destroy me but 

It's time I let it strengthen me..

It's time that I put up a fight

And start to overcome all

That's holding me from past

After all this adversity 

I've had in my past 

I learned how to forgive 

Those who hurt me, used me 

Abused and mistreated me

I can't open another 

Chapter in my life if 

I just keep letting the 

Past interfere with my future...

Can't stop my heart 

From hurting when there's

Always a bruise but 

This is who I am...

So you may judge me off

Of the things I do or 

Say but you will 

Never ever know the

Depths of my story

or all the things that 

I've been through

No one can feel my pain.... 

~Gorgeously Tina~

"Can You Answer My Questions"?!?!?!

Sometimes in life the winter
May come and we won't be
prepared Because we
missed the warmth of the sun
It start to seem liked
nothing matters
When you feel like
You at a crossroad and 
You try to put it together
But wonder... Why you feel lost???
Try to stay on yo grind
When life has you bound
In times like these is when we
Began to question everything
Hoping there's a change to come
But it's times like this where
We have to hold to what we know
It maybe hard to believe
What's going on but we
Can't just sit and watch
We always tend to look
For someone to tell
Us about the future or
To answer our questions
As individuals we try to
Keep a mindset of never
Giving up or giving in but
The second something goes
Wrong all that tends to change
We can have everything in the world
Then question...Why so much pain??
Why all this chaos???
Why this troubled heart???
Why is my world falling apart???
We say we can't take it no more
And be ready to walk out the door
And give up on our life
The reality is we can
Still feel the pain, but
Never find the answers
To why these things keep on
Happening to us in life.....
So why do we keep searching???
What is there left to do??? Or
For us to turn too???

"Learning To Accept Yo Past"

We as individuals
Tend to struggle
When it comes down
To the history of our lives...
What we FAIL to REALIZE
Is our past made us
Who we are today
We always try to find
A way to CHANGE it
But instead we should use it
To BETTER to FUTURE...
We can't just sit
Around thinking about
What could've happened if??? Or
I should've did this or that
Now is the time when we recognize
Where we've been brought from
And begin to live through it
Grow through it and
Pray through it just so
We can get through it...
In this life we
Have to learn to
FIGHT our own BATTLES
NOBODY lives your life
But YOU so as you
Continue to fight REMEMBER
NEVER EVER LET
YO PAST DETERMINE
YO FUTURE!!!

⇨ Gorgeously Tina ⇦