"Exhausted"

My heart feels so clogged that the thoughts
Of my mind tend to vanish without a trace
As if they have never been born before I'm
Tryin to find the missing piece of me the song inside of me I get side tracked by your promiscuous ways of trying to make me happy

Though I've been searching for some long
Time, searching for hope, peace, and some
Piece of mind...the pain will never go away
It is as if I'm at a gun range but yet I'm the only target it is time I stop letting people
Tell me that I'm not strong enough I have
So much to give that I'll never give up on
My light that shines bright as the stars

So, I gotta go, you gotta go your own way
This time I'm leaving I really mean that
It ain't that I don't love you no more but
Its is only getting worse and now it is just
A burden I don't want to carry no more I'm
Just exhausted I'm tired of feeling like nothing like them other guys I'd believe you
Once again falling for them lies.....

I gave you another chance I swear I tried
If this was love a blind man could see with his own eyes I think it is time we call it quits
And end this look at the pain you put me
Through I should've never trusted you to
Come around I was crazy over you because
It was a certain way you made me feel but
Not anymore your words weren't real that
They cut me so deep at the heart to the
Very point where I grasped to ask you to

Breathe the breath of life back into my
Body again...we wasn't a picture because Someone was always hurting, you said you'll
Treat me right but I was blinded from the
Start while you was filling up my head I was
Looking for love instead but you ain't stop
To see how I feel but it is fine you weren't
Lying when you said you ain't shit you just
Told me you loved me just to play with my
Mind and I'm just damn exhausted,

Tired, and fed up with endorsing more pain
I'm throwing in the towel and leaving you 
Behind with all the rest of my thoughts of
You and us to be burned in my head leaving
A bigger but yet deeper hole then when you
First had found me...

"The Uncertainty Of A Broken Heart Lost In Love"

Love is like handing someone a gun, having
Them point it at your heart, trustin them
To never pull the trigger...I feel I'm more
Criticized more then I'm in for and often
Times I ask myself what the hell am I even
Im for?? Is it for love???? Because I am
Willing to give that but at the end of the
Day it is not willing to give back....

The words cut so deep that in fact my heart
Feels scratched in the results are a battle
Scar I can't live with a broken heart so I
Mend it and pretend it no longer hurts me
The higher you build walls around your heart,
The harder you'll fall when someone breaks
Them down it's always the same game but just with different contestants

With everyone who leaves I feel they take a
Part of me with and barely leaves me enough
To put myself back together but if love is
Truly real a blind man can see with his own
Eyes and never ostracized I'd rather walk in
The rain with someone who truly cares then drive in a foreign car with someone who treats
Me like an option

You put me way through to much and I can't
Forgive you that easily you've done so much
My smile has erased I got fed up with all your
Lies, hurt, and deceit that causes my heart
To live in turmoil because your words cut Deeper then a knife and I need someone to Bring me back to life you watch me bleed until I can't breathe as I start to shake I Fall on my knees....

Your mouth is like a flame you lured me in
And I couldn't make sense the pain but your Bitter heart cold to the touch and now I'm
Left seeing red on my own I use a needle
And thread to get you out my head its time
Our memories wind up dead as I finally say
Goodbye to the man that was never real from
The start but tried to play me like a damn fool