"Dear 2014"

2014 has been such a 
Crazy year for me...it was 
Fun but it had good and bad times 
This year has been filled with 
Deceit, heartaches, sorrow, 
Frustration, Irritation, confusion
It never stopped there it kept on 
Getting worse even when things 
Got a little better it always seemed
As if it was to good to be true 
I've lost lives of my loved ones 
That i thought I'd never loose 
Anytime soon....after it all I 
Was left with emptiness inside 
But as I kept going through the 
Year trying to keep my head held
High there was tons of violence 
Going on around me....it really 
Showed that life is too short and 
That we should appreciate what's
here because one day it'll all be over 
And with all that kept surrounding me
The emotions of Betrayal, Pain, 
Complication, Judgement, disrespect
 And trying to find the good of it 
All was beginning to become very 
Stressful but overall this year has 
Been a wild experience that affected 
Me emotionally, mentally, and physically
I've cried and laughed....it was all exhausting 
And flew by fast I had lessons and blessings 
But mostly I learned a lot about myself and 
The ones I called "my friends". I thank 
2014 for allowing me to see how much I 
Can take before reaching my breaking point
And for the Learning experience....

"A Savior Is Born"

On one silent night 

In the midst of 

The world falling apart 

There was a woman 

Baring a child that will 

Save the world 

From Destruction 

He left his throne 

From up high to 

Teach us how to 

Love, Forgive, and 

Live by Righteousness 

As baby Jesus came 

Wrapped up and 

Willingly to take on 

The humanity of the world 

We celebrate this joyous 

Time Reflecting on 

His birth not born 

In a mansion, but a stable

As if he has no worth 

But as he came into 

This world with a plan 

To reconcile us back 

To Our Father, God 

Bringing hope and 

Redemption from sin 

Ruling over the world
Come let us reason 
Our egos aside 
Forgetting our past and 
Denying our pride
But life is to short
For us to live sad
We got to hold
To the good and 
We must learn from
The bad it's important 
That we embrace this time 
Because there's a healing 
For the soul and there's 
A healing for us all 

But so much seems to

Distract us from the 

Businesses of our lives 

We loose all our happiness 

Not knowing, that everything 

We tend to do we leave out Christ 

NOW IS THE TIME when 

We need to STOP and REMEMBER 

That JESUS IS THE 

TRUE MEANING OF CHRISTMAS 

The hurt that you created

OI'm tired of being hurt
Confused used & abused
You told me you ain't want
To get hurt but yet
Instead you kept leading
Me on knowing my
Feelings were true
I thought you'd be different
But yet I saw a whole
Other side of you... I kept
Tossing & turning thru
The night wouldn't be right
Thinking this couldn't be right
But that's just what I wanted
To believe as I continue to
Fall for you I questioned along
The way you're every move
But now I know the truth
I can't think that way of u
You broke my heart into
A million pieces probably
With the intentions to
I try to stop loving &
Care for you but it's hard
Because I fallen for you
You knew what u was doing
I was just to blind to see
But I hope you happy
That all this hurt & pain
IS BECAUSE OF YOU!!!!

{"GORGEOUSLY TINA"}

Love & stress

The things you do to me
Really hurts me inside
As well as you taking
Me on an emotional ride
Through all this stress
And discomfort I still
Aim for your attention
Hoping one day you'll
Step in and fix this
Crazy situation but
Sometimes I question
Your every move......
Is this a game????
Do you love me like
You say you do???
Do u really like me
Or is this even suppose
To be true???  Then u
Begin to second guess
Me I take you back then
You hurt me and leave me
Leave me empty handed with
No way to your heart you
Rather have hoes then
Someone who has been
With you from the very start
Even through all of that I
Stick around hoping you'll
Understand my true feelings
That are always shown right
In front of you but you 
Continue to break my heart
Everyday with all the games
You play causing me to stress
But I look past all your
Imperfections to go straight
To the heart....

{"Gorgeously Tina"}

"Finish What You Started"

In this life we live in we
Began to create ourselves
In this environment and
To help better ourselves
Accomplish the goals we
Set but what's the point
Of being alive if everytime
Something goes wrong you
Want a reset button or
You don't even try to
Do anything remarkable???
Why do we always want
The easy way out instead
Of stepping up and accepting
The challenge put forth???
Why is it so easy for us
To critique what someone
Else do but we can't
Correct ourselves or deal
With the fact that we
Made a mistake??? The
Truth of it all is we are
Who we are for a lot
Of reasons and maybe
We will never know most
Of the reasons behind it
But there's a reason for
Everything..there's a reason
Why life has no reset button
If there was a reset button
You will hit it everytime
Something goes wrong or
When there's a mistake
No one lives a perfect life 
We all fall short but we
Have to move on, fix the
Mistake then learn from it
Which builds a stronger
Character in you and once
you learned from your
Mistakes it will open many
Opportunities for you but
if you was to reset everything
You'll have nothing to learn
From or for people to see...
Even though you can't go
Back and have a brand new
Start BUT anyone can start
Now from their mistakes
And create a new Ending

{"Gorgeously Tina"}

"The story of an undefined girl"

I ain't to young to know that
Life has it's highs and lows and
Things won't always turn
Out like I think So as I
Grow up into this dangerous
Place we call a world I
Still question everything like...
Why is there So much pain???
Why my loved ones dying before
I'm ready for them too???
Why do I feel alone??
Why do I feel my whole World
Keeps falling apart???
Am I where I'm suppose
To be at in my life??? Even
Though I know the answers
To all these questions I still
Question it... my heart is always
Weighing heavy as I try to move
On from my past and I to accept
That people will do anything to
Get under your skin
I also know that I need to
Let GOD deal with things
That I have no control over
As I grow up I've began to realize
Life is a challenge, So I'll meet it
Life is a dream so I'm going to
Turn it into a reality... My heart
Beats a beautiful song as my life
Lives & reveals it....

{"Gorgeously Tina"} 

"The Pain That Lives Inside"

Everyday I wake up thanking GOD 

For all he has brought me through

But I still hold on to all that 

Happened to me as I

Was growing up 

Sometimes the feeling of 

Being stuck in the past 

And walking forward

With my back turned

Makes me realize that 

I'm missing out on 

Being happy and successful....

Now its time that I let go of all 

The heartaches, stress, frustration,

Irritation and aggravation

I'm sick and tired of being 

Lost, confused, hurt, 

Shattered, abandoned, broken, 

Depressed, abused and  misused. 

I'm no longer letting my past 

Define me, destroy me but 

It's time I let it strengthen me..

It's time that I put up a fight

And start to overcome all

That's holding me from past

After all this adversity 

I've had in my past 

I learned how to forgive 

Those who hurt me, used me 

Abused and mistreated me

I can't open another 

Chapter in my life if 

I just keep letting the 

Past interfere with my future...

Can't stop my heart 

From hurting when there's

Always a bruise but 

This is who I am...

So you may judge me off

Of the things I do or 

Say but you will 

Never ever know the

Depths of my story

or all the things that 

I've been through

No one can feel my pain.... 

~Gorgeously Tina~

"Can You Answer My Questions"?!?!?!

Sometimes in life the winter
May come and we won't be
prepared Because we
missed the warmth of the sun
It start to seem liked
nothing matters
When you feel like
You at a crossroad and 
You try to put it together
But wonder... Why you feel lost???
Try to stay on yo grind
When life has you bound
In times like these is when we
Began to question everything
Hoping there's a change to come
But it's times like this where
We have to hold to what we know
It maybe hard to believe
What's going on but we
Can't just sit and watch
We always tend to look
For someone to tell
Us about the future or
To answer our questions
As individuals we try to
Keep a mindset of never
Giving up or giving in but
The second something goes
Wrong all that tends to change
We can have everything in the world
Then question...Why so much pain??
Why all this chaos???
Why this troubled heart???
Why is my world falling apart???
We say we can't take it no more
And be ready to walk out the door
And give up on our life
The reality is we can
Still feel the pain, but
Never find the answers
To why these things keep on
Happening to us in life.....
So why do we keep searching???
What is there left to do??? Or
For us to turn too???

"Learning To Accept Yo Past"

We as individuals
Tend to struggle
When it comes down
To the history of our lives...
What we FAIL to REALIZE
Is our past made us
Who we are today
We always try to find
A way to CHANGE it
But instead we should use it
To BETTER to FUTURE...
We can't just sit
Around thinking about
What could've happened if??? Or
I should've did this or that
Now is the time when we recognize
Where we've been brought from
And begin to live through it
Grow through it and
Pray through it just so
We can get through it...
In this life we
Have to learn to
FIGHT our own BATTLES
NOBODY lives your life
But YOU so as you
Continue to fight REMEMBER
NEVER EVER LET
YO PAST DETERMINE
YO FUTURE!!!

⇨ Gorgeously Tina ⇦

"Stay On Yo Grind"

We as people needs
To have a foundation
Of where we want to be
And who we see ourselves becoming
But we tend to fall
Everytime something goes wrong
And then minute someone
Says "We Can't Do It"!!!!
We sometimes believe it and give up
In this life we live in
We have to learn that
Trying to please everyone
GETS YOU NOWHERE!!
It's time we we do for ourselves
It's time we stop
All the ignorance
Stop all the childishness
And interference
And get what we
Want out this journey.....
So don't worry about
Not finding that special someone
Because if you do what you
Got to do they will come along
But we all fall short
When we always want
Someone to be there then
We get hurt because
it's the wrong ones
But the truth of the matter is
We allow aggravation, hurt and
Irritation to consume the heart
And then that causes
Stress and frustration so.....
NEVER LET ANYONE MESS
UP ON YOUR GRIND BECAUSE
IF YOU BELIEVE
IN YOUR HEART
YOU WILL SUCCEED!!

~GORGEOUSLY TINA~

"As Time Goes On..."

As we all continue to
Grow up we will find
Ourselves in sticking situations
Where we won't know
What to do... or who
We can turn too
But if we just listen
To our hearts it
Will lead us far
But this maybe difficult
Because you don't want to be torn
But we should take our time
We just ordinary people
We tend to think we know enough
To know ourselves and do
What's right for us
Sometimes we think it's easy
listening to our hearts
But when people say
It's going to be okay... we start
To finally fall apart
Yes this all seems
Like a fight Because it's
So confusing, complicating
And consuming when
All you want is to
Go back to being happy
And sometimes we think
We'll never make it through
And that we have no
Hope that we can hold onto
We crash down then tumble
But we never crumble
We get through the pain
By picking our heads back up
Holding our head up high
Because we was not
Meant to break

~Gorgeously Tina~

Highschool

The FINAL STEP before college
A place full of OPPORTUNITIES
Waiting for you to take
It's a place where it will
Either MAKE OR BREAK you
Highschool will test all
Your STRENGTHS AND WEAKNESS
But it's up to you to
STAND STRONG through it all
These last 4 years are
Whatever you MAKE them
For some people high shool
Tends to CHANGE them or
Just OPEN their eyes to things
This is the POINT in your life
Where you PICK your COLLEGE
And GATHER all the things
You need for when you
Head off to college
Within these 4 years
You will either
LOOSE or KEEP friends
But also REALIZE
WHO YOU REALLY ARE
Highschool is Nothing
But a CHALLENGE of
FINDING YOUR DESTINY

What is LOVE?!?!?

Love is MORE than
Saying I love you
It's a STRONG four letter word
Love is an UNCONDITIONAL
Feeling that you can't buy
Nowadays people throw
The word around because
They NEVER experienced
What true LOVE is
Love is PATIENT AND KIND
When REAL LOVE is
Shared there's always a
Deep connection and sparks
Love tends to HURT us
Bit it's the TRUTH AND LIGHT
Love isn't what makes the
World go round it just
makes the ride worthwhile
Everyone has the CHANCE
to LOVE AND BE LOVED
No matter where u r
But it's up to us to
Test out their love
And see if it's PURE
Instead of running from it
This feeling will have you
Thinking bout someone 24/7
Makes you wish y'all
Was together all the time
With this feeling you wouldn't
Be able to stand seein them
HURT .... so you do all
you can to make
That person happy
That there is the
TRUE meaning of LOVE

LIfe Goals

This is life we live
Is not about the
Breathes you take, but
The moments you take
With those breathes, so
We should be trying to
Reach things beyond
Expectations trying to
Accomplish the impossible
And trying to hit everything
You plan to reach
We should chase our dreams
You may make some mistakes
Along the way but
It's OK it's in our nature
So if you fall down
Which you will
It's OK just get back up
Because if you STAND for NOTHING
You'll FALL for EVERYTHING
So just be yourself
And don't let anyone
Dictate your life because
You have the POWER to
To make this life your OWN, So
Enjoy this life while you can
And accomplish ANY AND
EVERYTHING that you plan

Dear Loved One

I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to
Stay here holding me
I miss you
I miss your smile
Plus I still shead a tear
Every once in awhile
And I know It's different now
But you're still here somehow
My heart won't
Let you go and
I still want you to know
I'm still living out my dreams
How I wish u could see
All that's Startin
To happen for me
But I still think
Back on the past
It's true that time
Is flying by to fast
It has become so hard
That it hurts me so bad
I feel like I loose control
But I know you're
In a better place
But somehow I wish
That I could still
See your face
I know it's where
You need to be even
Though It's not here
With me but I
Need you to know
I MISS YOU!!!

I believe

I do believe that
Time is a wheel
In constant motion that
Always rolling us along
I believe that some
People wants to
Look back on their
Years and wonders
Where those years
Have gone...........
I also believe that I
Built these walls to
See who's strong enough
To break them down
I DON'T believe in
What people say
Because deep down
I know that if
I have the power to believe
I will SUCCEED......

Gorgeously Tina

Love & Hate

Love is for those who care
Hate is for those who hate
Friends are those who will
Be there Til the end
Parents are those
To say never be late
You said you loved me
But at the Same time
You hated me
As long as your there
I would never leave
Why make me sad?
Why make me cry?
Why make me question your love?
If you loved me like you say you do
Then why you play Games      
With my heart
And then eventually tear it all apart
You've always said you would love me
I thought it was True
But all it was you....being you
I will always continue to love you
Even tho I hated the way
You treated me but just know
I'll still have love for you
No matter how this maybe True
I just hate how you always turned me blue..... but I guess that's just
The love that I have for you
To overlook all that you do.....

Gorgeously Tina

The state of being free

This is my storm
I'm at the
Eye of the hurricane
In a broken
Picture frame....
What does it mean
To be free???
What does it mean
To get these
Chains off of me???
The meaning of
being free is...
Making sacrifices...
To get these Chains
Off of me is...
Being all that I can be
This is my storm
I'm no longer
Against the wall
I'm learning
To stand tall
You can push me
But I will not fall...
As I look back through
My life I feel like It's
Still a journey now that I
Feel light.... BOOM! The
Chains has fallen
Now that I know
That I'm FREE
I will be one step CLOSER
To my DESTINY

Gorgeously Tina

Confused

Confused
You spinning round and round
In my head
Did you really mean the words that you said??
Cause I've been
Shattered, broken,misused
Depressed and confused
I just wanted to love you
And give you my heart
But u walked out the door
I'm frustrated, hurt and torn
My heart is afraid of the pain
So show me the truth
Should I stay or should I go??
Now I'm seeking the anticipation
I'm lost in confusion
I want to be happy
But want to spazz
I need ANSWERS!!!
You've abused my love
After I given u most of me
But it's fine i guess....
I'll just do me I will survive
Because I'm a strong teen
In the mist of confusion
I still find PEACE!!!

Gorgeously Tina

College

There, before me, stands a world unknown
I try to look beyond these 4 walls alone
However, it's daunting to stand on my own
For it shows that I am almost fully grown
There are guides who have shown me the way
But what am I suppose to do when
They are really far away
They have not only taught me everyday
but they helped me get time where I am today
I might have to move a great distance
And live another existence
I will have to learn to do so
With little resistance
And make it through with
Some persistence
Although it's but another place to learn
It's the very something I yearn
Therefore I will get something
I want to earn
But for now, I must wait patiently
For my turn

Gorgeously Tina

Life

Life
In a world filled with changes
Each and everyday
You worry about being judged
For what you for and say
Life can hurt you in many ways
And friends may walk away
Life is Nothing but a moment
But it comes and goes
just like the wind
But we all have an appointment time
Till we meet the end
Better make the most of it
live your best life everyday
And say what you need to say
Now looking into the mirror
I see to my surprise
A completely different
Person starring into my eyes
The careless little one
That I use to be
Is now becoming a strong teen
Just trying to survive and be
Free as she can be

Gorgeously Tina